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Home. Oh.. home. It's been six months since I've been away from home. I miss home. Everybody miss home. Mom and dad, brother and sister, granny and poppy, the faces that you grow up with. The smell of the nasty water, the language, the food, and the hot humid weather. hmmm... Home, I miss home. It's feels so long, long journey that I've been in. I even forgot how to speak my own language. I don't know what my family looks like, (well, I still remember their faces but of course they're changed), and I don't know what my friends all look like. Are they still remember me? Are everything still gonna be the same or not? Are they changed? Am I changed? Everything's gonna be so different.... But I am excited for it. Really excited! What I was thinking is.. am I gonna bring a change to my community at home? It's been such an amazing 6 months. I've learn a lot, gain a lot and lose a lot too. It's physically rough summer, and I am spiritually tired too

What do we first look on a guy that we just met?? His personality? Or his looks? He has a good looking face or he's very careful with his word? He has so much hair in his face or, how's he's act towards girls? Come on now! Be honest in here.. Me, I always look in his appearance. Like, always. There's some guys that, just to look at him, can make me hold my breath and burn my cheek to red like a lobster. And my heart will beat abnormally, and then I'll know that this guys are cute, handsome and hot. And I usually falling on that kind of guys. Handsome, good looking, popular and "cool". Hmm.. I like guys. A lot. (Which mean I am normal, because I don't like girl.) And I can talk about guys for eternity, seems like the story never end. Especially the guy name Jesus. I never know how He actually looks like. But I'm falling in love with him, over and over again. He is so.. so good! And I can talk about him more that I could spend in eternity. So much, S

The big old EGO, that's right. So hard to get rid of it. Ego, naive, and selfish. Oh my goodness. So many times I just think about me and me and me. I hate sharing my stuff with others. Like, I really hate it. and I will keep the best for my self. (why I wanna keep the best and give it to others??) But that's the Word say. "Put others ABOVE you. Your self." Dang! It's not easy. Not at all. Still have a hard time. Still is. Man, so many times I try to not too, but I guess it's just who we are. Human, flesh, never wanna share. Competitive. Always wanting the best. If I know somebody that I really like, I don't want them to know my other-prettier-girl-friend. Right? Man! since I was a little, I'm growing up and getting what I want. Always. Well, maybe not always, but most of it. (I'm not asking for 22 gun and my parents say, "Oh, what a great choice!" Right?) Anyway, I WILL get what I want. No matter what it takes. I wanna be a winner, whate

I have the best job in the world. I work in the largest company in the earth. It covers my meal, my place to stay, friends, health insurance, even death insurance. Every morning there's some angel's faces that I saw, I saw purity in pre-school kids. It's amazing. There's pure joy that they bring to my heart every morning, I can dance, sing for my Boss. Enjoy every sunrise here, in Topeka. (trust me, they have the best sunrise view). And share with young people. Fulfilling, exciting, and wonderful. Especially this week, I've been strugling with some serious issue that I can't get rid of for so long. I've been fighting through it, but I can't get out. Until one night, I was sick of it. So sick of my sin. I feel like I wanna throw up thinking that God forgave me but I still rebel and keep falling in the same hole. I am so sick. Spiritually sick. Let me quote some of my words that I wrote that night, " I don't know what's happening to me.. Ooh,

Oh, no... I just remember that.. I am an author! Oh, yeah.. I am.. Natasha Christiani, authour of a book titled 13 (tiba belas). Oh my word..

Here I am Lord, and I'm drowning in your sea of forgetfulness the chains of yesterday surround me I yearn for peace and rest I dont want to end up where you found me and it echoes in my mind,keeps me awake tonight I know you cast my sin as far as the east is from the west and I stand before you now,as if I've never sinned but today I feel like I'm just one mistake away from you leaving me this way and Jesus can you show me just how far the east is from the west cause I can't bear to see the man I've been rising up in me again in the arms of your mercy I find rest, cause you know just how far the East is from the Westfrom one scarred hand to the other. I start the day the war begin sendless reminding of my sin time and time again your truth is drowned out by the storm I'm in today I feel like I'm just one mistake away,from you leaving me this way and Jesus can you show me, just how far the East is from the West cause I can't bear to see the man I've b

So, last Sunday, we had a communion at EWC. And the cell group is taking a turn to serve a communion. and that day, they prepared something unusual for communion. They have a skit, about the last supper, Jesus with His disciples. And during the skit, this one little boy name Levi or something like that (don't really remember who it was), saying.. "My daddy is Jesus, isn't he? My daddy is Jesus. My daddy is Jesus." Over and over again. So, I look back and look at this little boy. And he just looks so excited telling all this people that his daddy is is being Jesus. With smile and his bright eyes, he just so proud of his dad. But, as I heard him telling all the people... I'm wondering, is Jesus really are my daddy? or just my daddy is being a Jesus? There's two different meaning of this words, "My daddy is Jesus." First, just like Levi, he's been telling all this people that his earthly father is being Jesus in the skit of life. Or second, Jesus is

Hello! How are you guys doing? I hope you're all doing alright. because, here, I'm doing fantastic! Thank you so much for all your prayer because the amish community and the buggy doesn't creep me out anymore. he he.. so, anyways, this week has been a wonderful and great week. I work at the pre-school, so I gotta get up early, like at 6 o'clock every morning, which I'm not used to it. But, how well, that's not a big of a deal anymore. God is so good. Sometimes I just can't believe it that He sent me to this place. This is like being in the third world, it feels like I'm going back to the year of 1800 or something like that. It's very country, big family, and full of bicycle and horses.. and people that dressed up like they're in 1800. And at night, the light goes off at 7 or 8 o'clock. (if they have a light). Which is really weird, because I used to live in the big city when the lights doesn't go off until mid-night. But I tell you, this

So, here I am, in Topeka, Indiana! Finally! Yeah... I'm so excited at first. I packed all my stuff and... leave from Camp, the beautiful place and the people I loved. We left at 7 in the morning, so I kind of fall asleep on the way to Indiana. So, I fall asleep... thinking, what it's gonna look like, and how's the people... and... I slept. But, when I got up, I look around. And ask Nicole, "Hey are we close?" "Yeah, about 5 minutes." So, I keep looking around... and I just couldn't believe what I've seen. People with black dress adn white kind of hat everywhere. Walking. And I start more freaking out when I saw the horse with the buggy. Oh my goodness... where the heck are you taking me, God?! I just couldn't believe it!! Well, they're pretty much Amish people. I kind of heard about it before but I never thought that I actually gonna see them, more than that, be friends with them. Let me explain what is Amish people for you who don't

Sheeeesssshh!! I hate money! You know why? Because money can give you everything, anything you want, so people doesn't believe in God anymore! Which makes me really sad! Because I believe in God and I don't trust money. People who believe in money, mostly don't believe God, or at least they don't trust God. Money can give you everything, happiness, good education, and great future. Money become many peoples goal in their life. They said, that they wanna go to good school, get educated and get a good job and get more money, and become rich! I didn't see where this things go... ? Rich people go to good school, and get better job to get richer. Ha! And I believe that it will continue from generation to generation. Money just doesn't make sense to me. Not even a little bit. That's probably because I believe in God so much, so I don't care what money said. "C'mon! I can give you a better life. You'll need me!" Mr.Money says. And I will say.

so, yey! my first blog, ever! so happy! hmmm... hmmm.. yeah, most of you must be questioning me about the title. "stuck in the heaven" that's sounds interesting. okay, let me explain it to you. now, I'm in Michigan, beautif ul states, and of course, quiet. And I'm in one of the most beautiful city, Saugatuck. I'm sure, most of you will ask me, " Where the heck are you live?" Yea h, Saugatuck. Trust me , it's outstanding! Marvelous! and I'm staying at Pine Trail Camp, the great camp. But the 'heaven' that I wanna tell you is, here, we have Kalamazoo river. so we can take a canoe and canoeing to the Michigan Lake. A nd too, they have a gorgeous dock, which unfortunately broke this summer. (Big bummer! Ugh!) So, most of the time, I came to that dock, feeling the gentle breeze come to my face and just have some quiet time with my God and my self. Just come and sit on the bench, quiet time my busy mind and find a hiding place.