reach strategically

I don't know what to write. Weird. Weird and weird. I didn't even know why I'm here. I'm not gonna say anything. Not that I don't want to, but I just don't know what to say. Weirrrdd... This is totally out of my comfort zone. This is not where I belong.At all. But this is not about me, isn't it? It's all about God, and we just follow. That's follower. He never said that the road will be easy, but He said that He will give us strength in the storm. "There will be mountains that I will have to climb And there will be battles that I will have to fight But victory or defeat, it's up to me to decide But how can I expect to win If I never try. I just can't give up now I've come too far from where I started from Nobody told me the road would be easy and I don't believe he brought me this far to leave me Never said there wouldn't be trials Never said I wouldn't fall Never said that everything would go the way I want it to go But...

Everything has a seasons… There’s a season to laugh, there’s a season to cry There’s a season for waiting, there’s a season to stop waiting There’s a season to be honest, and there’s a season to lie There’s a season to move fast, and there’s a season to just stand still There’s a season to hold hands, there’s a season to lose their hands There’s a season to remember, there’s a season to forget what we remembered Seasons come, and seasons go… There’s a season to hate somebody, but now there’s a season to love somebody Somebody whom I know that I can’t be with. Sometimes I just don’t understand this things. Not that he doesn’t love me back. But it’s all just a Season… "Season come and season go. Sun will shine and flowers grow. Winter comes and my heart Yours. For You will never leave me alone."

Slave. Pfsh! Silly, I'm ain't gonna be a slave to nobody. Servant. Yeah, tell me about it. Humble. I don't know. I don't understand. Ohhh... that's me long time ago. I don't understand those words. All I care is me, me and me. I do what I want. Everything have to submit to me, I always get the authority and I get what I want. Always. But following Christ is not about that. At all. He said "If anyone wants to be first, he must be the very last, and the servant of all." Mark 9:35 Humility, is not just talking about the heart attitude but the act as well. Servant is listening to what the Master said and obey it. Servant is being putting in the lowest place, servant is not complaining, servant is know that he/she is worth nothing besides the Master. Servant is diligent, servant is not proud (dooh!), servant is belong to the Master and do what the Master's will is. Servant is obeying, servant is not judging, servant is putting everybody else above ours...

I am. Me. Natasha. Sasha That's me. I am not trying to be someone else right now. I will do whatever I want to do. I will be whatever I want to be. I am not living under my friend's shadow anymore. I don't care if people don't like my style. I am not hanging out with the people that 'cool' but not have a cool attitude. I am hanging out with my true friends. I am not scare of people's opinion. I am doing what is right. I am not gonna hide my face anymore. I will be... me. My self. I'm gonna be honest to my self and leave whatever keep me in my box. I am sick of living a lie. I'm gonna spread my wings and soar. I will not wait. I will not let people shaped my character. I even don't care if I don't have friends. Because this is the real me. This is who I am. You like it or not. I don't wanna be cool, if being cool is not me. Jesus wasn't cool. He wasn't hang out with cool people, He hang out with the jerks, tax collector and prostit...

Let me get this clear, being different is not being rebellious, right? Everyone agree here? Good. I hate being rebellious and being with rebellious people. I used to be one though. And I realize that sometimes we just have to be humble and submit to the authority. Right? I love being different, but not being rebellious and annoying. Complaining, and murmuring is not my thing. Last year, I learn a lot how to be a servant of all, and just do whatever they told me. I submit to the authority just like I submit to Christ. Well, there's some ridiculous rules and regulation, but as long it's still in the line, I have no problem with it. The thing that I learned a lot, and I grow up is... it's is important how your heart attitude is and how your first respond. And if being different cross that line, I'm not okay with that. Because, out of my realization, I gossip, and talk about people behind their back. I complain and murmur. That's not right. But I can't make up my mi...

God was putting Tibet in my heart for such a long time ago. And I knew, that I am called there, but I don't know why and how. Seriously, how many of you have a thought to go to Tibet, to share the Gospel? You could've get killed I believe. Because, c'mon! You all know Tibet... only crazy people want to go there. Well, I am one of them. It's crazy how I love Tibet, and how it's stirring in my heart that I have a deep calling and desire to go there. It's ridiculous! I don't wanna go to Tibet, actually, but God want me to and he put His desire in my heart and it's start stirring and breaking inside of me. It's just to long to write how God's work in my life. It's crazy at the same time. I don't understand, but he put such a big plan for me to live my life. This afternoon, God spoke to me clearly, step by step how to reach strategically. It's insane, let me tell you. If you're not having a relationship with God, you'll not underst...

Oh I love to laugh. Laugh is one of my favorite things in the world. Laughing is a gift from God. Not many people can laugh though. It's not like the kind of laugh that sounded like.. "eh heh heh heh.." with forced smile and had a tons of wrinkle in your face. It is laugh that you just can't stop it, and your stomach is getting cramp because you laugh so hard, and you are hardly breath because it was just so amazing. Laugh. Laugh. Laugh. Laugh until you feel like you need to go the bathroom. And I think that kind of laugh cannot came out with certain people. That kind of laugh will come out with your best friend, the person that you can be the way you are in the real life. Because when we laugh like that we look really og-ley but beautiful at the same time. Oh I love to laugh. Laugh is really fun. And it's a reflection of joy, and joy-ness. If you have joy, you'll laugh, or smile at least. Laugh is a good thing to do, you'll look younger for longer time. h...